"DO NOTHING SIMULATOR"

Did ya miss me? I missed me.

Hello, friend.

I've been busy, you know. Really, really, really busy. My day starts at 5:30. I wake up, drink a cup of coffee, sit at my desk wondering what it is I should do, then I go back to sleep. I sleep for most of the day, and stay up most of the night. In fact, I'm writing this at 3:41AM on March 5th, 2025. Notice I didn't specify which 5:30 I was waking up at.

I don't think I'm really depressed or anything like that, I'm just kinda lacking stimulation. There's not much for me to do - and the same goes for my friends. Drink coffee, drive around. Walk around, get more coffee. Sit down at a restaurant. At a café. On the ground. On a bench. Invent things to do. Drive around some more. Talk about life, about love, about our futures. Speculate. You know, the works.

Just waitin' around to die.

(Do not interpret that in a morbid sense - I'm talking about the song by Townes Van Zandt)

I stopped working at the start of February. I got sick, got better, then got sick again. Gave my boss two updates, and he didn't respond to the second one. Sue me, but I wasn't really interested in coming back if he didn't need me. Apparently, he didn't. I knew I was going to put in my two weeks once I got to six months of work, but the opportunity to NOT be called " Puss-Puss", "fuckface" , and "retard" came at me, and I took it. I'm not gonna lose sleep over it.

Regardless, you fix one problem, and get a few more in its place. I had a job, and was doing stuff. Now I'm doing.. nothing. It's boring. So, I'm pretty much back where I started in October. This time, I'm not going to play Escape From Tarkov: Arena for two weeks though. I still have some money, and I'm taking it at my own pace, and enjoying the ride (if you can call whatever *this* is, enjoying).

But, I am ever the optimist. Life is shitty - woe is me, but I am still alive, and kicking. The best time to be alive is the time that YOU are alive, dear reader. With regards to me, it means I can hone my skills doing things I might actually want to do - like writing for this site! Big shout out to the like three people who actually read what I put on here. I don't have metrics, so I'm just guessing as to how many people genuinely read this stuff.

If you have comments, you can tell me about them. I'm too lazy (at least right now) to put a disqus comment section beneath my posts. I know some dork would come and tell me that I copied a lot from Gilles Castel (of castel.dev, RIP). I didn't copy any of his code, if that's what you're saying. His design philosophy and layout? That's a different story. 😁

Whenever I sit down to write one of these, I don't come into it with a plan. I hardly even try to revise my work, because I just want to debrief. With you, the reader. Whoever you might be. Don't expect me to be extremely profound, or verbose. Me like write word fast - no good. Yes? Haha. Nice. Anyways, I struggle to think of things of actual note in my life. The army thing is progressing, I got accepted to all three of the backup universities I applied to (UofR, UVic, and UofA), and am now just playing the waiting game for RMC. We'll see if it's as Jakey B. would say.. "blessed". I just need to stack some bread, work out, and hopefully not die before I realise my designs.

I started work on a few side-projects, including a web-scraping-job-applying-helper app. You'll see it, in due time, if I ever get around to finishing it. Check back on the projects section of this site, in a month or two, if you're curious. Hopefully I'll be done with the million other articles I intend to write, too. I bought Mao Zedong's "On Guerilla Warfare", too. Maybe I'll write a review of it, or something. I could give my (obviously) highly qualified two cents on the topic of asymetric engagement. I dunno really.

Well, that's about it. I'll drop the Cliff's Notes below, but just know: if you come specifically to my blog just to read the TLDR at the bottom, you're going to burn. In Hell. Damnation - of the eternal variety. I'm just kidding, of course! Or am I..?

TLDR: Really, really bored. Doing a lot of nothing, often together, with friends. Stopped working (for the time being). Keeping busy in pretty much the only way I know how. Accepted to UofA, UVic, and UofR. Waiting on word from RMC. Projects and other musings in the works.

That's all for now.

PETEN. ARRIVING. ON THE SCENE.

Peter